>.<

seems you have an ear for desperate people, as you updates but a few hours after i begged for an update XD

sigh...poor sesshy's getting even worse, but they have to look into his problem to maybe make them better so i still keep my hope up that he will regain some of his old self...more selfesteem, more courage to face the world...and hopefully more trust and believe in kagome and her intentions ...sigh it makes me feel a little bit sad as my grandpa and grandma were in need of care too and in the end my grandma didn't even regocnized us anymore...i know how kagome feels because even though i knew my grandma would never have wanted to be dependant on us, i'm happy that i was there to wash her and prepare her for bed for the last time on the evening before she passed away...it's emotionally hard to take care of your loved ones, but you do it BECAUSE you love them and not just because you pity them...i hope sesshoumaru is able to realize that too...come on kagome, don't give up :o

Great update, I just hope Sesshoumaru finds completeness without having to pretend he is well. This fic is so insightful.

superb -

it almost sounds like he is schizophrenic

I want to hold him until the pain goes away

Its hard to watch someone with a mental/physical disorder come apart. And you are showing the turmoil that Kagome and Sesshomaru are going through.

 In a way, though, Kagome is as much a victim of the past as Sesshomaru. Sure she doens't have the PTSD but  apart of her suffers as well.

 Keep up the great story! I look for this every morning and greedily devour every word.

>.< *cry* that was sooooooooooooooooooo sad...poor sesshoumaru..i cannot begin to imagine his lonelyness *cry*

i really really really hope that sesshoumaru has not to suffer that much so much longer...i know that PTSD cannot be healed completely, but he really has to finally get a little bit better...i think all this centuries are long enough....come on kagome!!!!

he already knows you love him, but he needs to finally love someone too...i don't think he can really be happy with just recieving and never being able to give anything in return....

pretty please update soon >.<

This is one of the most fascinatingly educational stories that I have read in a very long time. The psychological analysis is also very interesting and the poetic way that you create Sesshoumaru's thoughts is breath taking. The lack of grammatical mistakes and the quality of the writing is also a welcome respite. Thank you so much for writing! I enjoyed reading all that there is of this story (even if it really set me back in school reading!) and I greatly look forward to the next installment.

Well, I can surely say without a doubt, that this the most educated fic I have ever read concerning the human body and what could go wrong with it. Your info is beyond comparison to any fic I have ever read concerning the heart. You have done a fantastic job!

How tragic! Makes me think of the song "Sympathy for the Devil" one of my favorites. It can be happy time nao pleez? lol. This is an epic story.

Oh gosh, this chapter was a total tear-jerker...I couldn't stop tearing as I read how much Sesshoumaru had suffered. It was so much sadder than dying; he was doomed to walk like the living dead, and see everyone else die. That's really tragic. Gosh, I hope things get better for him, and on a side note, Kanrau (cute arrangement of the name 'Naraku' there) seems to be getting closer and closer to Kagome. The subtle hints like comforting her, praising her cooking...hmm, I hope I am thinking too much, but it so seems like he might be developing some interest in her. But of course, Sesshoumaru x Kagome all the way!!

I couldn't wait until bedtime to read this chapter and I am so glad I didn't. You've had me crying on and off through this, but when they read his notebook, the tears just started running and didn't stop...still haven't stopped. How painfully empty and sad his life was. And how will they reach into his lost memories, to help him heal? Very real, very painful, but there's a certain desperate beauty in this.

Oh, wow!  What a chapter.  Sesshoumaru really did some traveling and got involved in historical events.  Even something as small as Isaac Newton and the apple.  I had to laugh at that.  You even had him responsible for the Salem witch trials.  But he did them all alone and became more lonely than ever the more he travelled.  I agree with Kanrau, Sesshoumaru needs to remember his life as a prisoner so that it can be freed from the shadows of his mind.  I've begun to like Kanrau and hope that he does not turn out to be a disappointment.

Oh wow... sorry I didn't leave a review yesterday! I was at a hair show and only got enough time to read the update. But dang lady... those last two chapters are nuts. And as much as I don't like that idea, I can understand why Sesshomaru would want to end his life... he's been through so much and had to go through all of it alone, poor guy >.<

I thought the pope part was funny, and the same with the apple falling off the tree. Issac Newton anyone? And it would be awesome to have seen everything that he did... just not as alone.... once again I say poor guy lol.

Anywho keep up the awesome work and I can't wait for tomorrow!

I have been reading this for the last week and after finishing this chapter, I was listening to music and Serenity by Godsmack came on. And I realise how fitting the song was to your story. It it different and interesting to really see how living for eternity or lose to it can really effect some one, even our demon lord. Wonderful flow and and plot. You are doing a great job, keep it up.

Wow!!

This chapter was beautifully written. I could totally feel the pain and loneliness that Sesshoumaru had gone through as he lived through time. You did a great job making it clear why someone who is known for being so powerful and confident, could become so weighed down with guilt, fear, and end up being so depressed. 

Given all this, I can see why he keeps pushing Kagome away and why he wants it all to just end. He knows Kagome will age and die, yet he will keep on going. Why would someone willingly put themselves out there like this? Given this, I am interested to see how you are going to reconcile these two.

By the way, I bet the tissue companies are happy to have someone like you writing. You keep them in business.

p.s i know who he reminds me of he is the demon version of Forest Gump! lol :)

man thats a tearjerker! its so sad. he needs a vacation..like for the rest of his life type of vacation, with kagome! ") i dont even have to ask you to update you do it automaticly! love it!

0_o. This chapter was an absolute masterpiece!! Haha, the apple falling was my favorite part...that was newton, right?

Anyways, wonderful job!!! That was so interesting...

I'm happy this chapter was long. It lets me really get into the story. It was sad, though. You wouldn't imagine that Sesshomaru would be able to go through something like that.

For the first time reading this fic, I cried at the death and loneliness Sesshoumaru had to face. I felt his emotion and how he had gotten weaker and weaker. How he lost his mind and how time was cruel to him.

This is unlike other fic I read where Sesshoumaru survived the time with ease and became a billionaire. No, this Sesshoumaru survived the time like any other people would if they have immortality. The way you describe it told us that, living so long was not as fancy as it sounded.

Its a great chapter. I hope Sesshomaru can pull it through.