Cracked But Not Broken by Nefra

Kagome's Wish

Hey everybody. This will not be a completely happy fic, nor will it be an angsty. Some parts will contain angst but all in all there will be a happy ending. That's all I'm gonna tell ya for now. So please, read and enjoy.

Disclaimer: I do not own Inu Yasha

Chapter 1: Kagome's Wish

Kagome sat on the hillside looking out over Kaede's village but she didn't see it. The sun was setting, casting the sky in beautiful shades of pink, gold and purple but Kagome was blind to that as well. One by one tears streamed from her eyes only to drop forgotten to the earth. Each tear represented a piece of her shattered heart but she no longer cared. She didn't care who saw her weakness, she didn't care about anything at the moment. All she wanted was for the earth to open up and swallow her whole, never to be seen again. This was supposed to be a happy time; a time of celebration but it wasn't. She had made the biggest mistake of her life and actually found herself wishing she could undo everything.

She didn't notice when four figures came up behind her nor did it register when they surrounded her with their warmth. The only thing she could feel was the pain in her chest. It numbed her, made what had happened seem unreal but she knew better. It was real, all of it had been real from his harsh words to the destruction of the well; it was real.

"It will be all right Kagome." Sango whispered. "We're here for you little sister."

Little by little Kagome realized that her friends, her true friends, were still with her and standing tall beside her. They were her family and they hadn't turned their backs on her. Sango had one arm around her shoulders sitting on one side while Miroku was on the other in the same position. Shippou had his arms around her waist and Kirara had her head in Kagome's lap.

"We're your family now Kagome." Miroku reassured her quietly. "We will stand by your side forever."

Kagome recalled a time when she'd said the exact same words to a certain hanyou but now he wanted nothing to do with her. For a long time no one moved as they watched the sun set in the western sky. The stars were starting to come out when Shippou looked up at the dark haired girl.

"Kagome," he asked softly. "Can I call you Mom?"

Shippou's small voice seemed to register and she looked down at him with pained eyes.

"Are you sure you want to be attached to a good for nothing reincarnation?"

"Don't say those things about yourself. I've wanted to call you 'Mom' almost since I first met you. You can be my mom, Sango can be my aunt and Miroku can be my perverted uncle."

That got a small smile out of Kagome while Sango giggled softly. Miroku groaned loudly and lowered his head in defeat.

"Sure," Kagome whispered. "I would love to be your mom."

Shippou smiled really big and wagged his fluffy tail ecstatically. Kagome looked around her at the ones who stood beside her now. She decided then and there to make the best of the situation but the one she wanted there by her side the most hated her with all his being.

*Flashback*

Kagome was so happy that she actually got the nerve to kiss Inu Yasha. Granted it was just a little peck on the cheek but still a kiss. Inu Yasha, much to Miroku's amusement, had blushed a deep red. The defeat of Naraku was a happy occasion, one that they all had reasons to celebrate. Miroku's curse was gone, Sango had avenged her family and Kagome had finally righted her wrong by completing the Shikon no Tama. After they returned to the village Kagome said that she was going home to clean up and to talk with her family then return that evening for the festivities.

The young woman had thought long and hard about this and decided that she would stay in the feudal era with her friends and try to visit as often as she could. Her family had understood when she explained that she had no idea how much longer the magic of the well would hold. So she said her goodbyes to them, acting like it would be the last time she ever saw them. If she'd known how right she was she would have stayed just a little longer.

When she emerged from the well she looked up into the sky and saw a bunch of disconnected souls being captured by soul gatherers. Kagome knew what this meant and ran into the forest. She wasn't surprised to see Inu Yasha with Kikyou but a strangled cry escaped her lips when she witnessed Kikyou's portal to hell open below the hanyou and undead priestess. Kagome had decided to give Kikyou a new life with a new soul just to make Inu Yasha happy. But she had to stop them from going to hell first. Notching an arrow in her bow she raised it with all intentions of firing it into the portal, to close it so they could hear her out. Just as she let go of the arrow something jumped on her back throwing her aim off, it was Shippou. She watched in horror as the arrow meant for the portal struck Kikyou in the chest. The portal closed and Kikyou turned to a pile of dust in Inu Yasha's arms. When he turned around to look at her, her heart froze in place. His eyes were nothing more than bottomless pools of pure anger.

"What have you done?" he yelled at her.

"It was an accident Inu Yasha, I swear." Kagome answered. "I was aiming for the portal to close it so you two could hear me out."

Inu Yasha's expression showed nothing but disgust. "Do you honestly expect me to believe that? You took something away from me that meant more than anything. You take Kikyou...I take your home."

He ran past her at blinding speed and Kagome ran after him with all her might.

"Inu Yasha, NO!"

She got there just in time to watch him obliterate the well with Tetsusaiga. He sheathed the sword and turned to look her in the eye.

"I never want to see your ugly reincarnated face ever again." He said calmly. "Go do what you like with who ever you like but don't expect me to call you 'friend' ever again."

Kagome watched as he walked into the forest leaving with her only way home completely destroyed.

"I'm sorry Kagome." Shippou whispered from under her hair. "I didn't mean to do anything wrong. I was just so happy to see you that I..."

By this time Kagome was crying but she held Shippou very close and he hugged her back.

*End Flashback*

The sound of someone approaching made all of them look up. Kagome breathed a sigh of relief when Kaede sat down beside them in the grass.

"Ye are not to blame for this Kagome and neither is Shippou. This was something bound to happen sooner or later. When ye first told me of the plans to give Kikyou another soul I was happy. She would be able to live again and possibly move on past her hatred of Inu Yasha and yourself. I am sorry that things have turned out this way but perhaps one day Inu Yasha will understand. Maybe he will understand what your true intentions were and realize that it was not revenge that guided your hand but your love for him."

"I wish a certain hanyou jackass could see it that clearly." Sango said with a frown.

Kagome shook her head. "I can't make Inu Yasha do anything that he doesn't want to do. I guess we just weren't meant to be. Why would he want to live out his life with someone as ugly as I am anyway?"

Before anyone could respond Kagome stood up and headed down into the village to try and join in the festivities. On her way she made the decision that if he didn't care what she did then she wouldn't care either. She walked through the village, past all the offers of food and drink with an apologetic smile and entered Kaede's hut. She changed into the dark blue kimono that Kaede had given her and walked over to her sleeping place. Going through her bag she removed everything that she would no longer need. Going over to the fire in the center of the hut, she tossed her school books and her school uniform into it. The door to the hut stood open and from the other side of the village a certain figure watched through the door as she did this. Their eyes took on a saddened light for a moment before turning hard and cold then vanishing into the night.

The next morning Kagome awoke early to find Kaede moving about the hut intent on making breakfast.

"Good morning." Kagome said after sitting up and stretching.

"How are ye this morning?" Kaede asked.

Kagome shrugged and set about helping Kaede. "I don't really know. For some reason I don't feel anything."

Kaede watched the young woman sitting in front of her and shook her head sadly. Inu Yasha had said the one thing that could have broken her but she was putting up a very strong front. Kaede also noticed that the jewel still glowed pure indicating that Kagome would be all right given some time.

"Have ye given any thought to your wish?" Kaede inquired.

"Yes I have and I think I know what I'm going to wish for. I had thought for some time about bringing back Kohaku but Sango refused to let me do that. She thinks that his memories returning would be too much for him and that it would be better to just let him rest."

"So ye will wish to return to your home then?"

Kagome shook her head. "No, I had already told my family that I would be staying here."

"But yet ye had decided to return and tell them how your life was going from time to time."

"Yes, but I guess that decision has already been made for me." Kagome said sadly. "I will make my wish before lunch and I would like only you to be present when I make it Kaede."

Kaede sighed; she now knew what Kagome was going to wish for.

"I think that ye should reconsider this wish." Kaede said quietly. "Doing so will not bring back his friendship."

"I don't care what it does! I just want to undo my past mistakes so I can move on with a clean conscience."

"Where will ye go Kagome?"

Kagome's eyes took on a faraway light. "I don't know but it will be away from here. As much as I love it in this village, it's a big world and I want to see it."

Kaede nodded. "I understand."

"And besides," Kagome continued. "You still haven't found anyone to take over for you when you get too old."

Kaede smiled. "I am already too old child."

"I don't think so." Kagome stated, smiling back.

"I thank ye for saying so Kagome."

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Kaede and Kagome walked away from the village together about an hour before noon with specific instructions to Sango, Miroku and Shippou not to follow. Once they reached a small clearing in the forest Kagome stared at the jewel for a moment.

"Are ye sure about this wish Kagome?" Kaede asked again.

Kagome nodded. "Yes, I want my mind clear of any guilt."

Kaede had not been able to convince Kagome that there was no guilt to be had but the young woman refused to see it that way. In her young mind she had hurt a very dear friend and, though she would never admit it, she secretly hoped that this would indeed bring back the hanyou's friendship.

Kagome closed her eyes and silently made her wish. The wind around them picked up, whipping Kagome's hair mercilessly. The Shikon no Tama disappeared in a bright blue flame and the wind died down. A few seconds later a figure started to materialize in front of the two women. Little by little it became solid then looked around in confusion. Finally it's deep chocolate eyes fell on Kagome and Kaede.

"Why?" Kikyou asked softly with a twinge of something that sounded like a cross between happiness and sadness in her voice. "Why did you bring me back?"

Kagome smiled at her incarnate. "I have my reasons Kikyou. Please accept my apology for killing you."

Kikyou smiled at her, a genuine sisterly smile. "There is nothing to apologize for Kagome. But why did you use the Shikon no Tama to bring me back?"

"Let's just say I did it to make someone very happy and leave it at that." Kagome explained with no emotion in her voice. "I will take my leave now Kaede. If you should see Inu Yasha...tell him not to worry. I'm doing exactly as he requested and leaving but I will come back to visit from time to time."

Kagome turned away from them and started walking back to the village.

"Does she honestly believe that bringing me back would have made him happy?" Kikyou asked.

Kaede sighed. "There are some things that ye need to know Kikyou."

Ten minutes later Kikyou ran into Kaede's hut frantically searching for the younger miko. Miroku and Sango looked at her in shock even though Kagome had told them what she'd done.

"Where is she?" Kikyou begged them. "I have to stop her."

"Lady Kagome is gone along with Shippou." Miroku said from his spot beside Sango. "She has already said her farewells."

Kikyou shook her head and fought the tears that had started to gather in her eyes. Kagome had brought her back thinking that Inu Yasha was in love with her but that wasn't true at all. Kagome was the one that Inu Yasha loved; she had made her wish for nothing.

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Well, there it is. I know how this looks but I promise all of you that this will be a Sess/Kag fic. I am taking a different approach to it this time. Hope you all enjoy the read. Until next time...ja ne.